I was a long time didn't update here. Such a long time I'm being lazy.
Time flies very fast, already get ready go into middle of October. I was getting afraid. I already having this kind of life for few months. Its a depression, stresses and pressures life. What I could says is I'm useless. When every time someone ask me about my status, I'm feel afraid to answer them. Why? No why, the feeling is totally hard to description. Sometime I choose silent to escape this all questions. The feeling of depression never leave away from me.
In this few months, I was really realized that I m totally weakness. Brave and strong always far away from me. Its a chance to know about my disadvantages. I always should learn how to be confidence when I face to strangers. I'm totally fails to do this. I always can't speak fluent when I face strangers.
My family always said me that I'm not work hard to seeking the job. When they asked, I always smile and only answer..."Oh"...That all. I know if I explain more, there will be more excuses. I'm really getting tired and tired from bottom of the heart to seeking the job. Every time before I go for the interview, I tell myself, be confidence, be steady and smile so you can success to the interview, but the results had been beat me. Depression totally can't description about my feel now.
I was saw a lot of my friends were able to get their new job very fast, my mind is pop out this question, "why they can do, but no me". Useless is pop out from my mind frequently.
Else, the year end is coming soon, the job is more hard to get.--Haiz, more afraid.
Maybe not luck around me, this is I had to admit.
No choice, I have to bear this all. This is my life.
I hope my life will be wonderful shortly...This is what I want to.